It’s been a long time since I laughed that hard… It’s been more than a long time.
#this #this for me #is the turning point #this is it #the realisation #it’s one of those moments when it suddenly hits you #square in the chest #that fuck #you like this person a little more than you thought you would #and all it’s gonna cause is a shit ton of problems #you can speculate when you think it is #but i think it’s here #that dean finally gets it #he gets that cas is part of him now #and there’s nothing he can do about it #and for those who want to go one step further #it’s the time when dean realises that #oh my god #i’m totally falling for an angel #it’s all there #he’s been with sam for four years #and he laughs harder with cas in one night #than he has with his own brother #who he’d fucking die for #and the second gif #that right there #is the sucker punch to the gut #the painful realisation that an angel #of all things #has just made you laugh harder than your own brother could #and of course it hurts #because #this is a war they’re fighting #and they’re going to make sacrifices and dean knows the chances of them coming out alive is slim #and you know #he’s given a piece of him to cas #and the consequences of his actions will be pain #and regret #and grief #and he doesn’t know whether to be happy #or sad #because what could develop into something more #won’t #he knows that in the end all it’s going to do #is hurt more
The important thing about this is that Dean has never at all denied the insinuation of a relationship with Castiel. If he is as much of a heterosexual legend as canon claims him to be, maybe he would have tried to defend his sexuality more adamantly. But I don’t think Dean is straight, and I don’t think he’s gay either. He is certainly sexual with women, but he doesn’t seem to be able to interact with them on any deeper level. Even his relationship with Lisa was founded on not his attraction to her, but the idea of her, of being normal. While, yes, he has sex with women, all his emotional relationships are with men, so at the very least he is homosocial. The interesting thing with Castiel is that there is no familial obligation that keeps them together- not like it does with Sam or Bobby. The level of trust and affection he has for Castiel is homo-romantic I think, and the fact is that if Castiel was played by a woman, they would have had sex ages ago. Dean is loud, brash- but he makes no attempt to deny that Castiel has feelings for him, he doesn’t even laugh it off like he does the other gay jokes. He acknowledges the feelings between him and Castiel by not talking about them, by refusing to comment because they’re not feelings that can be easily resolved, and it’s just f*cking complicated.
I like
- Dean kissing Castiel
- Castiel kissing Dean
- Dean and Castiel kissing each other
- Destiel kisses
- On the lips
- And the necks
- And the nose
- And the everywhere
- Just
- Lots
- Of
- Dean and Castiel
- KISSING
#do you know what this looks like #like they just kissed the crap out of each other #like they were finally on their own so they jumped each other #and now they’re feeling awkward #but in like two seconds they’ll be kissing again #deancas #otpotpotpotp #otp #best ship ever they ruined me
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4 times Dean couldn’t see Castiel.
